I am doll eyes, Doll mouth, Doll legs, I am doll arms, Big veins, Dog bait, Yea they really want you, They really want you, They really do, Yea they really want you, They really want you, But I do too, I want to be the girl with the most cake, I love him so much he just turns to hate 2003-12-14 9:21 p.m. qI have to do things for myself. I need to focus on the things that makes erin happy. I am in a wonderful relationship, except I am being stiflfled by not being about to be in a place With kurt. we need our own apartment. It is a real shame that we cannot have the apartment downstairs. it would be perfect for the both of us. then my mom would see and realize that we have a wonderful relationship. we really love each other. but she is my mother, she has been through soo much. and her and I have a lot of issues to work out. I want to talk to the psychologist about all of this. I want her to tell me what to do, what decisions to make. I am working things out the best way possible. I just want to be me and feel comfortable being myself around everyone. if I go back to my job I will be hard worked but happy at the same time. I feel like im ready to put in that effort and really you know, do something with my life. I want to substitute teach eventually. I have to get my teaching certification first. Which means I need to register for a class in foreign language and take that test. I really need motivation that would be the best cure for myself right now. I can�t even begin to work on my relationships.. if Erin isn�t worked on. Worked on. Worked on. maybe I do need to do things for myself, like writing. writing feels really good to me. I am ashamed of being in the hosptial, I feel like I need so much help in figuring out what to do with my life. a lot of it is depending on my job, depending on my disablity money. I am drowning without it, i don�t want it to be a problem. but my dad is going to help me. help me do what he can. I am not going to worry about that now. I am enjoying a cd right now that is making me feel like im n ot the onlly one. I need a back massage. Really badly. I just want a back massage.

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- - 2004-05-23
depression started the day you were born - 2004-05-17
me, myself and I. In a nutshell, cracked in half. - 2004-05-17
just a blabber - 2004-04-29
companion, crutch - 2004-04-23

My Diary new older about me leave me a note mail aim *guestbook* **Pics of Me** layout diaryland Courtney Love Can you deal? Characters Hey hey! .. =) So here it is: Erin: Me! Blonde hair, green eyes, 5'1. I live in Lindenhurst,NY-Long Island baby! I love to listen to music, party, hang out with my friends and my boyfriend. My favorite food is Pasta. I love summer and going to the beach for tanning of course. Random facts: -I have a cat named Izzy and one named Smokey I like to buy new shampoo and conditioner as often as possible -Kurt and I have been together for 5+years I won't let my daughter(when I have one) play with Barbies -As a child I lived on Spegghetios -I was born in Palm Beach Gardens,Fl. -I'm very creative -I wanna go back to school for Creative Arts Therapy -I love rain and thunderstorms I used to model when i was young and want to do it again -I hate my feet -I love the smell of fresh cut grass, and gasoline -when I was little I was afraid of knives -I'm obsessed with Courtney love -My friends call my "erbear",you're a special friend if you call me Er -I've always loved People say I am: a)creative b)intuitive c)I look like mena suvari =). Buh bye! .**Erin**. moon phases � My Mood**always SugarComa SNOOP these peeps barbie07 noelanii beautiful08 brittybaby perceptionss sugarbabylon carmen4ever free2dream glittercaz hotkisses69 teen-mother